elections

We are having our band elections this year. It has been absolutely nerve wracking. My boss is running for chief for the reserve. I haven't been at work in over a week. I had taken this time to collect on all my overtime hours to go on holidays so I can tag along on the campaign trail. On April 04, 2005, I will find out who will be our new chief & council and who will be my new boss. It is quite scary to see the list of people that are running for election and to see our possible future leaders for the next three years.

I am actually at my own place. I have been staying at my mom's place recently and just discovered that I had only stayed at my apartment for a total of two nights in this month of March. I miss my home. I miss my bed. I am planning on staying here for the next two nights then I will be back on my reserve until the elections are over.

Wish us luck!

unreal

It has been so busy, hectic, crazy, and unbelievable around here .. It is like I haven't had the chance to sit down and breathe. If it isn't one thing, then its another. What's next? Have we not had enough heartache to last us a lifetime? It feels like my world is spinning. I see the people around me ... I feel the suffering that they are going through .. I can't grab at them, rather, I can't grasp reality. Everything feels unreal. I don't know what I am saying. I don't know what to feel. It is about 7:30 in the morning and I haven't had any sleep yet. Physically, I am not tired .. Emotionally, I am exhausted.

Memorials

GREG KEVIN NAYTOWHOW

1977 - 2005

"G" is someone

You can count on to be there for you

You can trust to tell your personal problems to

Who offers advice when you don't know the answer

That can lift up your spirits when your down

Who had respect for his parents

Who was there for his sister

Who loved to sit around and talk to his brothers

Please don't cry for me for I am away on another adventure

Mom I am not alone, I have Kerry with me

and a friend Farro.

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KERRY PATRICK NAYTOWHOW

1985 - 2005

"BIG SHOW"

I had time to

Love and share the good & bad times with my love Sheila

See my son Taylor take hs first step and get all excited

See my daughter Amy take in her first breath and cry

Laugh and joke around with friends and play tricks

I was taught to

Have respect for myself and for others

Love and Listen to my parents and grandparents

Never to lie "Be honest" mom would say

God gave us the chance to share and take care of you

God gave us the chance to hear you laugh and be happy

God has taken you back to his mansion

Please don't cry for me for I am not alone Mom

I have Greg with me and a friend Farro

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FARRO COURTNEY BIRD

1985 - 2005

God hear me when I say I loved little things

Loved spending time with her daughter and taking her for walks

Loved hearing her mothers voice and daddy sticking up for her

Loved to tease and joke around with her sisters and brothers

Loved spending days laying around with her love Dennis

Loved to spend the afternoons with friends and family

God hear me when I pray for little things

Bend your ear and hear my prayer

Guard me as the pupil of your eye

Hide me in the shade of your wings

God has called me to come home.

He has another task for me to do for my task is done here

God gave me two good friends to walk with mom

I am not alone

unbelievable...

There has been a tragedy on my reserve. It is unbelievable. I am still in shock. To me, it feels like it is the kind of thing that only happens in the movies or in the big cities not in a small community.

http://sask.cbc.ca/regional/servlet/View?filename=homicides050302

In a small community where we all know one another, everyone has been affected by this event. I was planning on coming back on here and writing more about this, but it seems like I don't have anything else to add or maybe I just have too much to say. Its hard to talk about something you just don't understand. How can someone do this?

March 02, 2005 - The world does not make sense.