bubble

I think I am just about due for a blog entry eh! I was having a heck of a time trying to remember my url for my blogger. After a couple unsuccessful attempts, I finally just went to Tash's website, clicked on the blogger icon (thankyou!) and just logged into the site. I don't have the greatest memory in the world as you can tell. I still can't remember my url. I'll figure it out someday. (I believe I went through this before eh Tash?)

A little update as to what I have been doing. Absolutely nothing! Exciting. I am still working at the Health Centre. A few things have changed there and I suspect there will be more changes along the way. I now have another new boss. That makes it two people that, in theory, can dictate to me. I save myself the confusion of wondering who I report to though by getting both my bosses to report to me and to check things with me first. I think thats pretty cool, on my part, anyways. I actually have a good working relationship with both my bosses and its making my job more enjoyable. Its still a bit stressful with the internal struggle some co-workers are having with adjusting to the new changes both internally and externally. I figure, as long as you do your job and show up everyday, your good to go!

I am still living on the reserve. I have turned out to be quite the Rez Girl now. I just do not know how to leave! I rarely go into the city. I miss the city sometimes, but right now, I am doing okay on the Rez. I have been playing a lot of No Limit Texas Hold'Em. Its an addicting game I tell you! In my first real tournament I had entered on the reserve here, I had split for 1st place in the main game and had come in 1st on a side game. Not too shabby, I thought. I walked out of there with around $900.00. My brothers say it was beginners luck. What do they know. Probably true, but still! I had beaten one of my brothers in a heads up battle to take first place. He is just sore about that. I absolutely love playing the game. The social aspect, pyschological aspect and mix in some skill and sometimes pure luck of the draw, is what draws me towards this game.

Its quite late (or quite early, depending on how you look at it) and I am getting purty tired here. I was out playing cards tonight and no I did not win. I, was what they call, the bubble. Being the bubble sucks. Tonight, the top two players were paid and I was the 3rd last! That is what they call the Bubble. The person who was just about in the money, but got denied.

I am stupidly tired now. I am going to bed. I can't type no more.

Goodnight, good day!

damn it!

Damn it! I was in the middle of writing in my blogger when the power went off at work! It was brilliant work. It was insightful. It was the kind of writing that people write home for. I seriously believe that I may have won a journalist award for it. It was that damn good. Now, I am left with this. One measily little paragraph. Just enough words to get people to keep checking on my blogger. Just enough for people not to give up on me. Enough to tide them over till the next time ...

p.s. I still can't find my bejesus or my whoop. If found, please return to me. I feel exposed and vulnerable.

msn messenger

Some friends were over to my office today and wondered why I have msn messenger installed on my computer, but always set as "Appear Offline."

This is my answer to them:

If I were to sign in as "online," my friends will start chatting with me. I will be too busy trying to carry on a conversation then worry about work. I will get behind in work. I will start stressing out because I am behind in my reports. I will start drinking because I am stressed out. I will be sent to rehab because of my drinking. I will be put on suspension from work because I am to be leading a "healthy lifestyle" while working. I will be stressed again because of my suspension. I will start drinking all over again. I will get fired from work. And why? Because I signed in as "online" on msn.

A bit dramatic are we Bonnie?

I was going to procrastinate today, but I think I will put it off till tommorow...

Why am I online entering in my blogger when I am super busy at work and I have a million and a half things to complete? I am a procrastinator. Which would explain why my reports are once again overdue. I was in the middle of doing my reports when I got to thinking, I haven't written in my blogger for quite some time. So here I am. Typing when I should be writing. Slacking when I should be working. Seriously now, I can't keep focus on one topic. I realized that when I started typing in this blogger. In the midst of it, I got up and went for a walk over to the Band Office and then to the store. I am now trying to figure out how to work our projector here. I still have this blogger open and all my papers are still all over my desk waiting for me to complete them. Well, I suppose it can all wait till after lunch now. Lord forbid, I work through lunch today. My grandfathers 84th birthday party is tommorow. I should, hopefully, have a picture or two to share on this webpage.

Till tommorow or next time (whichever comes first)