damn it!

Damn it! I was in the middle of writing in my blogger when the power went off at work! It was brilliant work. It was insightful. It was the kind of writing that people write home for. I seriously believe that I may have won a journalist award for it. It was that damn good. Now, I am left with this. One measily little paragraph. Just enough words to get people to keep checking on my blogger. Just enough for people not to give up on me. Enough to tide them over till the next time ...

p.s. I still can't find my bejesus or my whoop. If found, please return to me. I feel exposed and vulnerable.

msn messenger

Some friends were over to my office today and wondered why I have msn messenger installed on my computer, but always set as "Appear Offline."

This is my answer to them:

If I were to sign in as "online," my friends will start chatting with me. I will be too busy trying to carry on a conversation then worry about work. I will get behind in work. I will start stressing out because I am behind in my reports. I will start drinking because I am stressed out. I will be sent to rehab because of my drinking. I will be put on suspension from work because I am to be leading a "healthy lifestyle" while working. I will be stressed again because of my suspension. I will start drinking all over again. I will get fired from work. And why? Because I signed in as "online" on msn.

A bit dramatic are we Bonnie?

I was going to procrastinate today, but I think I will put it off till tommorow...

Why am I online entering in my blogger when I am super busy at work and I have a million and a half things to complete? I am a procrastinator. Which would explain why my reports are once again overdue. I was in the middle of doing my reports when I got to thinking, I haven't written in my blogger for quite some time. So here I am. Typing when I should be writing. Slacking when I should be working. Seriously now, I can't keep focus on one topic. I realized that when I started typing in this blogger. In the midst of it, I got up and went for a walk over to the Band Office and then to the store. I am now trying to figure out how to work our projector here. I still have this blogger open and all my papers are still all over my desk waiting for me to complete them. Well, I suppose it can all wait till after lunch now. Lord forbid, I work through lunch today. My grandfathers 84th birthday party is tommorow. I should, hopefully, have a picture or two to share on this webpage.

Till tommorow or next time (whichever comes first)

little update...

I haven't really entered anything into my blogger for awhile now it seems. The only time it seems that I am in front of a computer nowadays is at work and there is always just too much for me to do. I am now living back on the reserve for the time being. I moved out of my apartment at the end of July. I miss my apartment, but realistically, these past few months, I have barely been staying there. I was only there on weekends. It isn't too bad staying on the rez. I figure, I will be here till at least after christmas once I straighten out a few things. Other than that, I don't have that much to say right now.